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Sunday, March 28, 2010 5:55 PM ♥
Labels: neoprints
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Friday, March 26, 2010 1:13 PM ♥
1 more day to my 16th birthday. Planned to go out with friends. Yet i am filled with fear and etc. Whats going on with me?
What made me so scared? I don't know.
Imissschool. I want to attend school. Still having headache and such. When will it stop...?
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Tuesday, March 23, 2010 6:19 PM ♥
Randomly added up some pictures from the past. Dear tomorrow is our 1year4months Although there are so many things are happened along the way~ I still love you ♥
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5:02 PM ♥
There is just PARTICUALLY 1 BIG dog with no balls in my class. Guess who?!
LOL~! I was totally pissed off by this. I don't mind if you scribble INFRONT of me. But i mind if you do that behind me. LOL!
I won't mind if you just FUCKING admit it that you did it. Its always better than how your FRIENDS said it out for you. In class so SAKI~ Now when i ask, You are like a coward hiding away.
I don't mind my CLASSMATES scribble on it. BUT infront of me. I don't mind~!
But behind me, What does it mean? No balls? No dick? No guts? Or you're just not a man?!
SHAME ON YOU
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Wednesday, March 17, 2010 10:06 PM ♥
Was appearantly called out just to choose 2 flavours of ICE CREAM. But guess what, The 2 kids had already made their choices. They chose what they want to eat what about the rest? Some FUCKING ignorant kids.
I feel as if i am the one staying under someone else's roof. This ain't my room, this is also HER room as stated by HER. This is not my bed, this is also HER bed. Some spoilt brats i have in this house. Just a simple whinning or ust drop a few drop of crocodile tears, there they are. They won They got everything they want, toys etc. They command others to do stuffs as if we owed them a living or i can say the whole world owes them a living.
I am so going to fucking save up and move out of this house. I can't do whatever i want. Because they are young, they win. Everything... Whats the use of asking me out so urgently just to choose a simple ice cream when the kids had already made their choice. I suddenly feel that perhaps, I am really not suitable to handle kids. Although i really love kids, i can have utmost fun with kids that are not related to me in any way but not them!
I am seriosuly sick of them! Have anyone even heard of kids at a tender age of 7 scolding CB? Or even a kid who is only 9 scold fucker? NO right? What have this society become? I may be a kid myself but i know i am not AS bad as theirs. They get angry for the most nonsencecal things. Like asking her to wake up for tuition or just asking her to bathe.
She is like snatching my mummy from me. What about her mum? Where the FUCK is she? This is my home, my room YET a simple mistake of accepting them to live here changed everything.. I love my aunt alot..I really do~ But i can't tolerate her kids. She may feel debted to them but this is really no way to handle those types of kids.
This is seriously a FUCKING place known as a FUCKING home! Who cares about the elder kids, they can manage on their own. I supposed this is how they feel.
FUCK OFF
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Friday, March 12, 2010 9:27 PM ♥
If our friendship were to come to an end, i am still glad that we have memories.. If our friendship were to come to an end, i am still glad that we were once friends. The times when we are going mad as one, the times when we were singing out loud as one. The times when we used to go out as one. As i am typing this, i suddenly feel so werid. Its seems to be a long time since we really went out as one. The exams, the works, the army life, the schools, the busy shedule. Isn't these the things that kept us busy? Even typing such things on my wall now seems so weird, like i have never once done this before. -what i posted on my fb wall.
I know everything is soon coming to an end. Our friendship, relationship and such. Perhaps its time to move on. I can feel tears at the brink of my eyes but i wouldn't cry because i know i have memories.
We had all grown up from the age of 9 till now, 14,16,19&20. We all used to hang out together as one without fail. Until the day dinosaur left us for India. Everything seems to be changing around us already. The busy school and exam shudeule filled up most of our times. Even going to jurong point can be hard for us.
The last time we had taken a neoprint, the last time we seemed to have such a bug fight like this. Eveything seems so different. I didn't cry, because i finally understand. Our friendship can be too made up of memories.
I won't ask for anymore everlasting things because i know nothing can be everlasting. Even the most beautiful dinner comes to an end eventually and everything would just be like Cinderella whom would turn back to how she was after the clock strike 12. To you, it maybe just a fairy tale. But to me, it meant no everlasting...
15 more days to 16th b'day. I dont want celebrate it at all
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Thursday, March 11, 2010 10:41 PM ♥
I had enough of my current life. Things isn't going that well. I feel so dead when i am at home. I feel so tired when i am in school. In fact, I feel that my whole life is ruined!
I didn't turn up for Sports day today, i wasn't feeling well. Woke up with a headache yet there is nothing i can do to it. Had flu and sore throat EVERY morning since a week ago. I am so tired of this life. Facing different stuffs everyday really drain me out. I thought i can finally be a good girl for this year, handing up all my assignments which i already did. Passing MOST of my subject, which i still fail 3 WTF?! 3 important ones somemore.
Mummy isn't coming home early lately. Baking seems to be my only way of distracting myself from boredom, confusion and also numbing me from the stress that i know i am to face everyday. I had to keep my promise to NOT let my mum turn up for another parents' meeting session because i know they hated that.
For the past 6 years in my primary school life, they never did once had to turn up. Only till secondary 1, they seems to be a regular guests to the teachers because i am failing badly. I remember once i nearly got retained in secondary 2. I think without ms seeto help, i won't be able to be here today. She called my mother that day to advice her and also to tell what how i am performing in school.
Initally, i thought that she is just a busybody who wants to complaint to my mum blah blah blah. But i was so wrong. I started to miss her lessons in my secondary 4. I regreted not paying to her lessons when i am in secondary 2. I started to miss her naggings. I start to miss her as my teacher.
Friendship too isn't going that well. She hasn't been in a good mood. Yet, there is nothing much i supposed i can do.
Plan to get a second 'son'
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Wednesday, March 10, 2010 8:50 PM ♥
I am losing my life..SERIOUSLY!
whats fucking wrong with having a guy as a tutor? He used to be my tutor anyway~ Why get so fucked up? This year is my Os, i thought you understand the reason for me to get a private one instead of those in centres. I thought you really understand, i thought you really understand what i am going through now..I was so wrong. You don't understand at all after all. After you seen me rushing from one place to another always. You saw how stress i was, you saw how i finally managed to cope with it. I promised my mum to get a good grade, you know that. You know how important my studies is to me now. But yet you doesn't understand. I am disappointed
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Sunday, March 7, 2010 3:23 AM ♥
SiLeNt here...
Sorry DD if i hurted u again... Sorry...yes indeed i promised you that i will cut down on gaming... and the candy...sorry i promise...i know...but i kept forgeting... and the thing i will leave after they finish their sec 5...
Muacks DD...
17 more days to our anniversary...
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Friday, March 5, 2010 10:21 AM ♥
DD is Here to Post On DD's Blog... I Wont Give Up!
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Thursday, March 4, 2010 11:25 PM ♥
150 post since last year. Time really fly i guess. These few days without DINOSAUR jiejie is so quiet. At least, Seeing him and Jiali play along I would be able to feel less stress..
Every thurs and fri, I would be studying til late. But i think it would be all WORTHWHILE~
Sorry bryan for making you bleed today. Guess i was TOO VIOLENT.
I never once forget the promises you made to me. But i think you had. Even if you did fulfil. You only maintain it for at most 3 days. I am tired of this relationship.. Very tired. You promised to study.. You promised to cut down on psp and such.
You broke these promises UPTEEN times. But do you even know that? I feel insecure and empty when i am with you. Sometimes, Even heart ache. Don't ask me why.. I don't know.
I used to love your bravery, Your courage, Your strength. But now, You seem so weak infront of me.
I feel so distant with you. I start to miss the times we used to have when we are friends. Like today, My work had manage to COMPLETELY numb me, Letting me forget that you have again broke your promise.
I remember how you used to call me once you wake up. Or even at least a message from you. Now, Even wwhen you promised me to call or text me, You never did it.
Whole morning, I was rotting in class, Trying to keep myself awake. Hoping that you could faster start up your pc and text me. But you seem to forget about that..
Now, Your psp & gamings seems to have filled your whole life. I know loving someone is acfcepting him for who he is. But.. I don't know if i can accept how you are now.
You used to protect me in the crowd, You used to keep me accompany even if i am baking. You used to coax me to bed, Making sure that i am sleeping before going to bed. Whenever i am in a bad mood, You used to be always there for me to rant on and on. And so much more.
But its already the past...
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Monday, March 1, 2010 12:19 PM ♥
You disappoint me AGAIN & AGAIN You broke your promises AGAIN & AGAIN What more can i expect from you?
You broke my heart again and again, after you promised to mend it. You let my tears run down again & again, even though you said you won't
on 27dec 2009, 2.55am You said you made up your mind to cut down on psp and laptop, and more care for me..
But you didn't do it. That was EXACTLY 1year1month3days
Why let me think that you can do it when you can't? Why let me shattered into pieces and weep for you? You said it hurts you to see me sad, But it was you who disappoint me still
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