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Wednesday, September 30, 2009 10:33 PM ♥
These few days isn't going smoothly for me. Not because of studies anymore because i am catching up. (^^) Its not about friendship.. Because i decided to stop interfering in them. Its actually about.. My family~ Every year without fail.. During this exam period will always be a very tedious time. Why? BECAUSE storms are raging in this home of mine. I hate it. Seriously... Mum... You said you don't want any troubles to affect my studies. You said you want me to pass with flying colours. At least promote to sec 4.
But mummy... Do you know that its not those stupid things that are causing stress? Its you... All just you.
I hate it when you are unhappy. But during this time, You attitude towards us is like SHIT! The way you talk to us. Its just like you don't even want to care at all.. And we really hate that.
Daddy... For once.. Just once.. Let me have a loving family. A harmonious one. A true loving one. A united one. Thats all i asked for a family Labels: its not the stress...its the unhappiness
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Monday, September 28, 2009 11:31 PM ♥
Decided to post this picture up. AFTER GETTING A GREEN LIGHT FROM deardear. Hmm.. Korkor say its BGR thats affecting my studies. Then what should i do? I really am studying.. I am really trying hard. They won't think that i am trying hard JUST because.. I didn't do well... TO me... What really cause me stress and distract me. Is the problems around me. Be it friends or famiy...
I can no longer endure it...
Sometimes..
All i want is your support and understandings.
Thats all i ask for
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Sunday, September 27, 2009 11:47 AM ♥
Woke up damn EARLY in the the morning larh.
HEADACHE~!
Woke up by korkor.
CHanged into FBT and shirt.
Kena scolded by mum.
Saying that:
"You wearing this to west mall arh?!"
Then blah blah blah.
So changed into skirt etc.
Ate breakfast..
In the end,
Bro said that he wants to go to the toilet.
Ask him go to the coffeshop one.
He INSISTS on using the home one.
FUCK LARH!
Damaged mum's mood by 50%
Then i asked.
"Mummy...can we go JP later? I want to buy NF"
Then she said:
"You want, you ask korkor drive you there. I don't want go"
"I thought you want buy shorts at WM?!"
Then i was like
"I don't know WM got NF shop anort."
"But i know JP have."
She ended with
"Then suan liao la. We go home. Don't go WM liao"
I changed for no reason and she just asked me home.
I was DAMN unhappy already larh.
The best thing is...
Korkor was talking to jeremy.
Then i thought they had done their talking so i can just talk.
I was like
"Walao! Korkor you got see this time the NEWFACE?"
"The girls all not very pretty lor"
Then in the end..
None answered.
I was neglected larh.
Then jeremy speaks again.
Korkor answered.
WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS?!
These few days.
I am really very FUCKED up.
Exams are coming.
I am trying very hard to study and to ace all my subjects.
I promised XINEPI that i will promote up to sec 4 with her.
Its a promise.
I must fufil it..
I no longer know what to do.
What to say...
Things are no longer the same.
People had shown me how ugly this world is.
Some had shown me how beautiful this world is.
Some shown me how friendship can be broken within a sec.
Sone had shwon me whats everlasting friendship.
Seeing everything from many different aspects...
It thought me many lessons.
Far more than what i had learnt in school.
"trust is built within 10 years...20years...and even more"
"but its also ruin within 1 minute or even 1 sec "
I agree to it alot.
perhaps,
this is the ugly world that everyone had to face.
Perhaps...
nothing can be compared to how this peroid of time had thought me.
i hate it
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Wednesday, September 23, 2009 5:37 PM ♥
Today just take oral...
27/40
OMG?!
Damn bad larh.
Anyway...
These few days feel somehow stressed.
Something is on my mind.
But i never know what it is.
There is something in my heart.
Something which cause somehow...
Pain~
But i never know what cause it~
Perhaps is the exam which is coming?
Perhaps its because it hurts me to see you 2 sad?
I really don't know.
A REALLY BIG APOLOGY TO XINPEI.
I poked her eye accidently when i return her paper.
SORRY!
I feel like crying.
Or is it already crying in my heart?
I admit..
I miss some of my past.
Those past which would never be back.
Friendship...
I really cherish those days.
I was found in a daze when Mr Backthair came and start moving his hand above my head.
They said..
He was trying to "destroy" all those bubbles at the top.
I don't know what i was thinking.
I don't know what cause me to be in a daze.
I don't know how to focus anymore.
I feel like sleeping.
Sleeping to numb myself~
This pain made me want to cry.
This pain make me so confused.
So what if i seem happy?
So what if i put on a smile?
I lost my smile days ago.
Weeks ago.
I don't even know when it was gone...
I am starting to hate myself
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Monday, September 21, 2009 11:49 PM ♥
FINALLY back on singapore.
I miss singapore so damn much larh.
Return to singapore and realised so much had happened.
I don't wan tot elaborate on the happenings.
But i just want all to be happy.
If its too pain, let go.
Don't forget...
i will always be there for you 2.
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Saturday, September 19, 2009 2:42 PM ♥
In genting lan now.
Decided to post about yesterday.
GUESS WHAT?!
Some bloody asshole knocked our car boot open.
And our luagges are all gone..
Ok idk how to spell the "xinli"
What i want to say is that.
OMG!
You bunch of bloody useless idiots.
Fancy stealing others stuffs when you have limbs to work for them.
Are your parents boob/penis so big that they need extension?
Because of you lot of bastards,
I lost my charger etc.
Lucky all my valuables are with me all along.
There are plenty of PADS in the bag.
Enjoy using it to clean your WORTHLESS balls.
FUCKED UP TOTALLY~
Deardear,
I really miss you alot.
I really need you by my side.
I love youLabels: I just realised my eng is Fishing bad
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Wednesday, September 16, 2009 10:21 PM ♥
 Gucci was to take photo   HEHEHE!~ I finally got my new toy. WAHAHA Just $4 I think its worth it larh. Anyway... Its the one circled in white. PROUD!
Let you all see my plushie family.
:)
I am bringing lunchbox to school tomorrow. WAHAHA! Having PMS. Hate it larh. BORED~! I am looking forward to buying the 40cm stitch next TUESDAY. At chinese garden only. I love Blogshopping for PLUSHIE
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Tuesday, September 15, 2009 9:40 PM ♥
Today went to school feeling DAMN tired and worried.
Deardear is sick.
Yesterday,
He was having slight fever at the temperature of 38.8
OMG?!
This morning,
He woke up DAMN early larh.
8.29am.
Ask him to take temperature.
It was 37.4
Now gone up to 40.0
WTF?!
I am damn worried larh.
Deardear
Get well soon.
I love you
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Monday, September 14, 2009 10:03 PM ♥
WHY CAN'T I HAVE THE FREEDOM TO TAG WHAT I WANT..?
Fucklarh.
I never once thought that in this world people would be still so childish.
Tagging at others blog,
Editting it...
DOn't they feel disgrace?!
Nevermind.
I ain't that childish.
I don't want to mixed with them either.
So DONE WITH MY POST
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Saturday, September 12, 2009 4:27 PM ♥
HAPPY 13th Birthday, JEREMY
Didn't sleep well yesterday night. Woke up early in the morning just for breakfast.
Deardear came and accompany me. He was playing PSP as usual. Daily routine -.-
Nothing much to say actually. Because nothing fun is happening lately. Normal days. Normal Happenings.
Only thing maybe could be just that, I start blog shopping again. I bought a plushie.
Going to meetup this tuesday to get it. Looking forward to it. And this blogshop i am buying from, I really TRUST the owner alot. Mainly because, She bothered to notify me about the defects. And i think that she is really different from some blogshoppers.
Like for example. This girl. I bought a total of $128 of stuffs from her. Now, She gone MIA. Fuck right?
So i think, Its really okay to buy from her. Even with the defects :)
Just pass by tingjun's blog. I just wanted to say that, No matter what, Tingjun... Me and the rest are here for you. Cheer up :)
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Thursday, September 10, 2009 11:47 AM ♥
I finally picked up the courage to call jiali.
I don't know if i had done the right thing.
I don't if i am ready to face them all.
Perhaps i am already used to being on my own in my own world.
I don't know.
Friendship really changes.
Everytime i thought this friendship would surely last,
They usually end it even before i knew it.
When i believe in someone.
I thought they were the one being there for me in the past.
I supposed i was wrong again.
6 years of friendship.
Nearly ended because of some misunderstanding between me and the other party.
Is it really a friendship?
Or is it just like what yiyi said.
Even the longest friend will leave you one day.
Friends are perhaps like a lesson in your whole life.
They thought you how to be strong,
They gave you the memories thats almost enough to last your whole life.
Are friends really like a "hi-bye" stranger?
I don't know.
People say that the last person who leaves you,
Is always your family.
They will nver leave you alone to die.
Even cousins,
They are also my friend.
Kimberley...
She is like the only cousin in my mother's side who actually listens to me whenever i nag.
We do things together since young.
Perhaps,
Jiali and I could never be the same as before.
I don't know.
She now have her friends all around her.
I supposed they give her even more care and concern than i can.
She have xue ning as a support
and i hope that their friendshp would last on.
Sonethings would just never be the same again.
when i thought we can last long.
when i thought nothing could come between us,
when i thought 6 years of friendship is full of understanding
when i thought 6 years of friendship is full of accpetance,
This issue proves me wrong.
I never once had this strong feeling like that very day.
Maybe i already gave up on this friendship but i never want to face the fact.
i just want a everlastin friendship.
I thought this would be the one.
i don't know if i had done the right thing.
But i really want this friendship to last on.
This is the friendship i want to cherish
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Wednesday, September 9, 2009 9:07 PM ♥
 ARGH! Sunshine :)  GHOST!?  i am so bored Today was FUCKED up by the tuition.
Anyway.
I just planned to do some simple talking.
And pictures uploading.
XINPEI.
Your hair is REALLY okay :)
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Tuesday, September 8, 2009 9:27 PM ♥
jasmin lah.........i din change.........
nothing has changed in mi.........
if u sae i changed coz in the past i very guai....
then u in the past also very guai ma......
nw also ah lian 一个.....
nw i don't even know i have to smile or frown when i see u......
.......and did jiali cry...
-By: Xuening
Its not about changing or what.
Yes.
I admit that i said that you had changed.
I admit that i had changed.
But what i really meant is.
You weren't like this in the past.
You used to understand.
You used to think about something before doing it.
Perhpas i don't understand you.
But...
At least,
You and Jiali gave me a very memorable memory~
And yes..
Jiali did cry...
Today was a hmm...
Don't know how to say.
Can't find words to describe the feeling.
Went out with KIMBERLEY.
Ate MOS BURGER.
And had a super long chat about our past.
It had been 2 years since we had a heart to heart talk.
So i really LOVE today.
Pierced my 2nd and 3rd hole.
:)
Finally my mum allowed.
Wanted to pierce tragus.
On 2nd thought.
I think..
Nevermind.
Don't pierce tragus.
Anyway.
I really had fun today.
And i TELL you,
Without samuel by my side now.
Really caused ALOT less troubles.
I REALLY LOVE KIMLabels: most memorable day :)
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Saturday, September 5, 2009 2:28 PM ♥
Yesterday quarrel with DEARDEAR. But everything is fine now. I will surely miss Tan Yingxin From RGS. Trainers of OPSG. ToaPayoh estate memories. Alhtough its just 2 short days, I really learnt alot. :) I love DEARDEAR
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Thursday, September 3, 2009 10:33 PM ♥
Today went to ToaPayoh today.
Everything was quite okay.
I ate alot today.
WAHAHAH!
Okay if i were to update everything about today,
it would probably finish by tomorrow posts.
OKAY!
I am damn irritated larh.
FUCK the phone larh.
Keep fucking ringing.
FUCK off my world.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.
I am DAMN FUCKING pissed off
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8:17 PM ♥
Today was OKAY...!
Went to Toa Payoh for workshop.
In group 2.
AKA tangerine.
Named by our trainer.
LOL!
Ok i am super not used to not seeing them.
I am super not used to be out of school at this time.
But HAIS...
NEVERMIND..
CHIA MEIJIN CHEER UP LARH!
SEE YOUR NAME SO BIG.
PROUD ANOT?
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