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JASMIN

An UNREASONABLE aries
Receives presents on 27 Mar every year.
Currently age 16
Studying at Jurong Sec
Simply LOVES 1-2 ,2-2, 3-1, 4-1
BabyEeyore & Stitch is my LOVE

My Boyfriend ♥

Attached to Chua Jing Xian ♥
Since 24 Nov 2008 ; 2.55am ♥
The one who gives in to me the most!
The one I want to cherish the most
I ♥ You ; Deardear
Gifts ♥

The 1st Valetine Gift from you ♥__14Feb'09

2nd Gift bought by your 1st pay ♥__16May'09

3rd Gift from you ; Couple Ring ♥
For 6 Months anniversary ♥
♥__19May'09
♥__20May'09 { Received }


4th Gift from you ; 9 Roses ♥
2nd Valentine's Day Present ♥
♥__14Feb'10
They are pieces of puzzles that forms..
Our Memories

Music


MusicPlaylist
Music Playlist at MixPod.com


Feelings & Thoughts ♥


Footprints ♥


Wishlist ♥

Everlasting love with DearDear
N79
GOOD results
Everlasting Friendship
Jobs!
Couple Ring
Tubes
Bags
Cardigans
Baby Eeyore
No more quarreling
New phone
A week of break
He stop PSP
Tragus Piercing
FREEDOM
Quit school
AngelDevil Tattoo
2nd piercing
3rd piercing
& lots lots more...

Links ♥

♥♥♥ Couple Blog
♥♥♥ Deardear

Alvin ♥

Bryan ♥

Celina ♥
Charmaine ♥

Gina ♥

Jia Li ♥
Jasmine ♥
JiaJing ♥
Jolene ♥
JSS Choir ♥
Jen ♥

Karna ♥
Kelly ♥
Kimberley ♥

MeiJin ♥
MeiQi ♥

Nelson ♥

S.Simin ♥
Sharon Jie♥
Spencer ♥

TingJun ♥
Tongmui ♥

Vanessa ♥

Wenxin ♥

XinPei ♥
Xue Ning ♥
Xinyi ♥

30days letter Challenge ♥

Day 1-Your Best Friend

Day 2-Your Crush

Day 3-Your parents

Day 4-Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5-Your dreams

Day 6-A stranger

Day7-YourEx-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8-Your favorite internet friend

Day 9-Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10-Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to

Day 11-A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12-The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13-Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14-Someone you've drifted away from

Day 15-The person you miss the most

Day 16-Someone that's not in your state/country

Day 17-Someone from your childhood

Day 18-The person that you wish you could be

Day 19-Someone that pesters your mind-good or bad

Day 20-The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21-Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22-Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23-The last person you kissed

Day 24-The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25-The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26-The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27-The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28-Someone that changed your life

Day 29-The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30-Your reflection in the mirror


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Monday, August 31, 2009 10:15 PM ♥

TODAY IS THE LAST TIME
I AM GOING TO CELEBRATE TEACHERS' DAY!

I am really fucked up today.
I ain't happy larh.

Because 3-1 is NOT UNITED at all.
Today celebration,
Our form only came in for the pathetic 5 mins. -.-

I feel damn ashame la.
His PE class gave him something to show their appreciation.
He did so many things for our class.
What did we give him?
We gave him disappointments.

He help us to ask Mrs Chuah let us off early.
He help us lied to our parents when we in fact behave BADLY.
But does anyone actually appreciate?

He planned the lessons out,
trying to make it fun.
He let us watch movies just to not stress us out.

Today is TEACHERS' DAY.
But i think that we gave a very "memorable one"
Whats our class doing when its suppose to celebrate?

Playing soccer?
Playing poker?
Talking about ____?

Then whats the point of coming together as a class to celebrate?
Might as well just stay home.

Some classmates even went to 3B.
Is this UNITY?
NO....!

We can never be as united as the basketballers.
They support one another.
They are always there for one another.

what about 3-1?
if this is known as a class,
then whats a difference between a bunch of stranger and a class?

Even for a simple WELFARE!
Xinpei had to do everything on her own.
What about the others?
Rushing home to do what?
Smoke?
Dota?
Or football?
Just one time,
ONCE for a unity.
Can't 3-1 be united for once?

Mr Bakhthair gave up on trying to make us united.
BECAUSE ITS ALL USELESS.
3-1 is never united.

The 1st half of the year,
Everything was near perfect.
Everyone was bonded.
NOW,
Everything is like wasting time.
All these celebration.
What Mr bakhthair did for us.
we never knew how to appreciate it.
TRUE..
Humans are NEVER satisfied

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Saturday, August 29, 2009 8:02 PM ♥

Rain falling down
Isn't very happy these few days.
If i was never born, will things be different?

I failed my CA.
I regretted.
I want to study harder.
I want to seek help from teachers.
But i HATE it when you treat me this way.

To others,
Maybe they feel that you still treat me like how you did in the past.

But to me,
Its no longer the same.
You don't care as much.
I may be in the family.
But i am treated as if i am invisible.
I felt neglected.
Its just RESULTS..

So what if i said i want to study overseas when i grow up?
So what i said i want to go university when i grow up?

ITS ALL THE PAST.
THATS what i hoped for in the past.
Now, i just want to be here.
To be what i want to be.

You said maybe i failed because you gave me too much freedom.
FREEDOM?!
To me,
YOU DIDN'T GIVE ME ALOT.

Sometimes,
I am not allowed to go anywhere i want.
I must ask for your permission even if i want to leave house.
Giving me freedom in your opinion,
Its just letting me talk on the phone till late in the night,
Letting my friends come over.
Letting me out of the house when you said OK.
But is that really the freedom I want?

Although i am really GLAD that you didn't make me break with Jx.
But from the past...
I never had the kind of freedom i want.

Can i even stay out till 9 at night.
You said NO!
Latest was only 10+
Only when it was with you.
When you took us out.
When you were with your sisters,
We can then stay out late.
BUT...
I never enjoyed myself...

At times,
I never want to be home.
I HATE this home.
This realistic home.
Failing exam then i am treated this way.
Does it matter to you that i was never happy?

I never want to come home but i know that you will be sad if i run.
I wanted to end this USELESS life of mine.
But i know that you will be mad if i really do that.

All i can do is to CRY&CRY each night before i sleep.
But you never know.
I had to fake as if nothing had happened to me.
Just to not let you worry.

I never had the life i want.
You NEVER allow me to overnight.
EVEN if i am 21.
You said you won't allow.
I am already 15.
Not the same,young girl you used to had.
I have my own thinking.
I have my own way of thinking.

I WANT TO LIVE THIS LIFE THE WAY I WANT.
I DON'T NEED ANYONE TO COMMENT ON MY LIFE.
I AM WHO I AM.
I NEVER WANT TO BE CONTROL FROM THE START.
FROM YOUNG...
I AM REBELIOUS...

Korkor said...
I should change my character.
But thats who i am...

When i am unhappy...
I cry...
I hate to talk...
I tell others when i feel like it.
I give attitude when i am pissed off.

From the start,
this is who i am.

If i never can be someone i want to be.
If i can never live the life i want.
Then this life is really meaningless...

If i don't even have a right to choose whether i want to speak.
Then i rather i never lived.
I would rather be mute.
I can't even be silent for the time i want to be.
MUST i really voice out when any of you want to know?
Why can't i just make a FUCKING choice?

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Wednesday, August 26, 2009 8:30 PM ♥

Yesterday was the MOST unhappiest day.
But i never once really am angry about it.

I failed my exams.
I too regreted for not studying.
But no point crying over a glass of spilled milk.

i still haven got over what happen anyway...
Perhaps the marks will remind me of what i am suppose to do.
I am really sorry
Monday, August 24, 2009 9:56 PM ♥

i love you


Happy 9 months


She is love by me OKAYS?



COmparing our "tails"
Today went to school as usual.
Nothing happen really.
Except there is NO relief tcher for chem.
WOOTS
After school,
rushed to back gate to meet deardear.
OMFG!
Zavier is damn di siao de larh.
Board 98 in about 5 minutes.
They came really fast.
Met meiqi, Meijin.
Then yeah.
Slack as usual at HKE.
Deardear saw Axel, Nicholas and friends.
Don't know who are they.
Headed to JP after that.
Saw Xinpei and Jiajing.
Ah pei don't look very well.
Bought Tingjun's present.
1 purple carebear :3
Pass her when she reached at about 7+
Talk and crap awhile and saw 1 uncle.
Damn FUCKING disgusting.
He say what:
"Little girl, so chubby. So cute"
{ Translated into english }
Each time i saw him.
OMFG!

Then headed home at 7.45 like that.
Forgot to mentioned that today met Samuel also.
Was like weird weird?
Ok.. Because he was like acting weird.
Ok nevermind.
I don't give a damn.

I can sense things well!
Because before i leave,
I said:
"Who knows nicholas they all would be coming out from this lift when the lift opened."
GUESS WHAT?!
I am right...!

PRO RIGHT?!

Deardear,
Although today wasn't a very happy anniversary.
But i still love you alot alot alot.

Meiqi,
Go school larh.
I miss you can...
Don't make me so worried hao ma?
You so CUTE!
later anything happen to you.
Me and Meijin how?
You have me and meijin, Tingjun they all NO MATTER what.
We support you.

Meijin,
DOn't everytime emo lei.
Bad for health de lor!
Walao!

Xinpei,
Cheer up alrights?
You have me and jiajing marh.
Although we seldom go out together,
But at least,
We all can still have a heart to heart talk.
I love you.

Jiajing,
I got nothing to say about you.
You too cheerful liao.


Decided to add 1 video below.
Deardear upload this onto Youtube.
MALU!
There are alot of retarted pictures.
I strongly encourage all to NOT see after eating.
Because they are my Zi-lian moments!
Off my mixpod and watch.
Its better.
I love you too deardear
Sunday, August 23, 2009 6:48 PM ♥

Just reached home and bathed.
Went IMM with mummy :3

Bought 6 tees from IP zone.
Clothes from C.O.A.X

Headed to Bedok after that.
Mummy and Yiyi went to the chinese doc.
I went to have my hair cutted.

Was okay i guess.
The aunties are really friendly.
Nothing else to post.

Except from what my mum said to me.
" If you and Jingxian was to quarrel over such childish things everyday,"
"Then whats the point of being together still?"
" I rather you and him not be together..."

Its true.
We have been quarreling over small things.
Because i am really unhappy.

Shall not say much.
I am tired.
I ain't feeling well..

I know the fact is.
I want to cry.

pictures

in hope to get a honey star
Saturday, August 22, 2009 10:22 AM ♥

2 more days to our 9 months anniversary.
Time really flies.
We had known each other for so long.
You watched me pass my PSLE.
You watched me stead with Samuel.
You watched me cry when we broke.
You watched me and my friends quarrel.

I saw your rebelious side when you made your mum worried for you.
I saw you kicked the football so hard that it nearly hit an aunty in 2006.
I saw many things..
Too many to be listed down.

3 years nearly 4.
Or even 4 years nearly 5.

When i first saw you.
You were sleeping and just woke up.
I was putting on make up at your place.
Getting ready with your sister to go to a performance at 500+
That was in 2005..

We once said that even if there is no girls/guys in this world,
We will NEVER ever fell for one another.
But we were together in the end.

You gave me support the past 1 month+ when i was crying hard everynight.
Because i can't forget Samuel.
Even though you are sad,
You cheered me up.

In 24 November 2008 ; 2.55am
We got together.
3 days later,I went overseas but you insisted in calling me.

I remember the first time you attempted to hold my hands.
I was afraid and refused to hold you.
I remember how you tried to prevent me from being squeezed in the crowd when the MRT was full.
I am really touched.
Thats also when we first held our hands.
I remember the first time you kissed me in the lift.
I was stunt by that sudden action of yours.

Deardear,
I just want to say that these 8 months+ with you,
I am really very happy.
You really did a very good job as a boyfriend.
You never really once left me alone.
When i am sad,
You comforted me.
When we quarrel,
You gave in.
In hope that we would be fine.

You tolerated my rebelious side,
You tolerated mt attitude and bad temper.
You were often trap in between when me and ah ning quarrel.
But you never once left me alone.

I really appreciate your love.
I love you deardear
Thursday, August 20, 2009 10:47 PM ♥

BAKED CAKE TODAY!
Woots.

Not well in the morning but still made it to sch.
I miss my deardear.

I got nothing to post today lei.
Everything so damn normal.
Except the part when MEIJIN is mad with DARREN.
Thats the only funny part i think.

Nothing to post at all..
LALALALA!
Tomorrow is FRIDAY!
But i got CHOIR.

The chocolate with cheese CAKE was a success!
PROUD!
LOVE TO BAKE SIMPLY.

I am happy that we didn't quarrel today.
Hope that everyday can be this way.
At least..
We are both happy.
4 more days to 9 months.
I love you
Sunday, August 16, 2009 3:25 PM ♥

Cam-Shyness
See the difference.
3 black.
1 white
Look at my big face
Right to Left:
Jasmin, Meijin, Meiqi, Tingjun

13 Aug,
Went to Fuhua Mama Shop nearby.
Celebrated Tingjun's 17 Birthday :D
She is OLD OLD OLD!
Ok shall not be so bad.
So yeah!
She is officially 71 :x
17...

Happy memories.
AWW....
14 Aug
CHOIR!
Back to choir la.
I am guai Kia!
15 Aug
Ah ning come over and ton.
Deardear headed home himself.
SO sad!
Nothing to post leii
16 Aug
Morning woke up 8+
Headed to JP for breakfast.
Then headed to deardear hse.
-.-
All the way til 4+,
Went home.
Xin joined us at 3+
WAKAKA!
Still nothing to update.

SO LIFELESS LA!
Now waiting for Meijin Waiyu to come.
SHE SO SLOW LA
Sometimes,
I really feel that i cant be myself anymore.
My incapabilty of expressing makes it so difficult for you to understand what i want to say.
I want to be me.
But at the same time,
I want your care.
Am i asking for too much?
I hope i am not

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Tuesday, August 11, 2009 8:46 AM ♥

Today didn't go to school.
Now reached home and i feel sick.

Outside school not sick,
Reach home jiu sick.
What nonsenses.

Anyway.
Was NEARLY late.
Then mummy and i saw Mr Ang.
Mummy said: Walao that teacher there lei
I said: Then U turn lo
Mummu said: Ya, I agree
So we U-turned.

Went to had breakfast.
I told mum i decided to head home.

I realised i got 2 test today.
Geo&Eng.
But didn't make it.

So now home.
SIAN

Just wanted to wish you:
A happy Birthday

Met Tingjun at 4.30 for a chat.
Went to leslie house corridoor and chat..
Was fun.
Didn't realise we had so much thing to chat about.

Went to tuition after that.
1st time deardear didn't go with me.
1st time he wasn't waiting out there.
BUT
Nevermind.
Because he is will his friends and that i want.
:D

When i thought this is the friendship i can trust in,
When i thought this is the friendship that would last.
I realise i was wrong.
I thought you would care.
I thought we were friends.
But i just somehow feel that i am always neglected.
But its ok...
I can be strong.
Friendship may not be the right thing for me

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Monday, August 10, 2009 2:46 PM ♥

Yesterday was fun in the night.
Went KBox @Jurong Saffra.
Sang from 10.30 to 3.

I was thinking og what happened between me and him.
I just couldn't get it.
Feeling Fade?
Or because i am tired of going on?
I don't know.

Anyway,
Just came back from JP.
Was super sian.
Went to get water guns.
Night going dinner with family.

Perhaps.
Today is the the only day when i can have my time to be alone.
And think through throughly about our relationship

I ain't happy at all.
Family or relationship

I am too selfish.
Let me go
Sunday, August 9, 2009 12:46 PM ♥

Suppose to go and see the fireworks tonight with him.
But i think.
Its cancelled again.

I looked forward to this day.
I never went to see fireworks with my stead before.
You are the 1st one.

For 2 times in this month.
You raised my hopes again and again.
Make me look forward to everytime when you said you are bringing me out.
Bugis trip...
Fireworks trip. { I cancelled it because its meaningless to me }
They all ended up in disappointment isn't it.

All you did was sleeping.
Time and time..
Again and again.
You never kept your words.
You made me really disappointed in you.
You made me believe that I can spend time with you alone today.
You made me believe that you can be there to accompany fully today.

For the past 3 days,
I never once stop crying...
How many times i wanted to lean on your shoulders.
I asked you why is it that gaming is always important than me.
You said no, its isn't.
Each day,
You never failed to talk about games to me.
Even yesterday.
I am utterly disappointed in you...

PS: Happy National Day
11:14 AM ♥

Yesterday slept at 2.
Morning wake up at 6.30++
WTH?!

Went jogging with mummy.
Make me vomit like SHIT!

Home-ed,
Bathed, fb-ed.
Then went to had breakfast.
Then follow by marketing.

Now sitting here doing nothing.
Waiting for time to fly...
Going out with Deardear later.
FIREWORKS :)
Saturday, August 8, 2009 6:20 PM ♥

Planned to go BUGIS for the past 2 weeks.
Everytime SURE got something.
Hais..
Tired of waiting.
Not wanting to go anymore.

2 weeks ago,
Planned to go BUGIS.
Ended up not going because of some STUPID reason.
Today,
Planned to go BUGIS with deardear.
But he didn't sleep yesterday.
Because he was PLAYING psp again.
Suppose to meet him but he fell asleep.

So i cancelled it off.
Today went to facial with mummy.
Early in the morning.
9.30 woke up.

Stayed at the facial place for nearly 6 HOURS!
MAD!

Wasn't a very fun day anyway.
Sian.
Hais...
I had enough of all those nonsense.
Really...
I had given up.
12:51 AM ♥

Deardear just went home around 1hour&51minutes ago.
Quarrelled with him
But ended up crying like mad on his shoulders.

I showed him the weak side.
The one which i would just cry out loud.
He hugged me tight ^^
And i realised.
I can feel his warmth.
I feel secure.

Wanted to hug him all the way.
Because it was really very warm.
I felt super secure.

Deardear.
I never wanted this relationship to end.
Although i said it many times that i want to break.
But in my heart,
I never wanted to.
I want to cherish you like how you did.
Nearly 9 months.
And we can go on like this.

I love you and want to walked on with you.
Our promises.
I want to fufil it.
I love you deardear
{8letters ; 3words ; 1meaning}
i love you
Friday, August 7, 2009 9:45 AM ♥

Today didn't go to school.
Reason:
Abit sick plus i don't want to go.
Waste of my time.
RWAR!

Don't know why the hell woke up so early around 6.43am.
I must be mad!

Headache~~!

Yesterday,
Normal school day and i wasn't late.
HAPPY!

Lessons as normal.
Not very interesting anyway.
After school,
Mr Sam held us back for 15mins.
WTH!?

I don't have enough time to eat la.
SIAN!
THen A Maths remedial.
2 Hours more of studying.
Had a sudden urge to study you know.
OMG?!
I must be sick.

Harry Potter is nice!
As in the books.
I read okays?

ILoveChuaJingXian

Just talked to deardear on MSN.
And realised.
I wasn't talking to deardear.
OhGosh!
MALU MALU~

I want to be the old me.
Although i know its not a good thing.
But its not a bad thing either
I am me myself from the start.
Dear sin't controlling my life.
He allows me to do anything i want.
He respect me.

M&M is my love~
Wednesday, August 5, 2009 9:55 PM ♥

Today isn't as happy as i thought it would be.

When I thought i won't be neglected again.
When I thought i will never be sad with you.
I guess I am wrong.

Quarrelled with DEARDEAR&xuening.
Seriously,
I am tired.

Perhaps,
I should had been a loner.
A loner without friends.

I looked through some blogs.
Realised somethings are no longer the same.
I lost all of them.
Those who promised to be with me till the end.

My rashness,
My ill-temper attitude.
I lost them all...

When i thought you all would be the one who understand me the most,
I was wrong.
Very wrong.
Friends...
Are they really just passerby?
Are they really just meant to be my lessons?
I miss my past.
My wild life.
I no longer feel the same.
I am no longer the person i want myself to be.

I miss them.
I really do.
I miss the days with Xinyi and Tingjun.
I miss the days with Meiqi and Meijin.
I miss the days when all of us gathered together.
I miss my past.
The past when i realised.
That was the real me.
Rebelious...


I was never the girl that you all thought i were.
Perhaps no one can unedrstand me that well.
Perhaps because i am too self-centered.
Well...
I never know...
Saturday, August 1, 2009 1:51 PM ♥

Yesterday pei DEARDEAR go MCYS.
Deardear ended his probation already ^^
Finally,
After 21 months,
It ended.

Went with DEARDEAR friends.
.
CHatted with Vivian while waiting for DEARDEAR to come out.
At least i am not bored there
Because CHUA XIAOZHU didn't go.

Home-ed at 5.30.
Reached home at 6.45+

Because pei DEARDEAR go get his hair dye.
At night,
Went to Bedok area for some religious dinner.
SIAN SIAN SIAN!

Home at 11+ i tink.
Deardear was at home dying his hair.
Cool Rose.

Now,
Looking at CHUA XIAOZHU.
Her head is out.
LOL!
Looking at DEARDEAR being a CHILD.

Going Bugis-ing soon.
WAHAHA!
Byebye