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Thursday, July 30, 2009 10:50 PM ♥
Finally done uploading MOST of the pictures.
Yesterday was 2 leo babies' Birthday.
Deardear & COusin; Felicia.
Celebrated at 491 by having a dinner.
Wahah!
After that,
Went to canal with Family to celebrate.
SEE THE PICS.
Put cream on deardear face wahaha!
Today
Went to school as normal in the morning.
Took many pics with Ah pei because JJ is not here.
I miss JJ la.
During A Maths,
Not well again.
So excused for remedial.
^^
Took bus with Meijin.
Waited for Deardear and XiaoZhu at bus stop.
Took pics again.
Went to had lunch
Then head-ed home.
At night,
Playes HEart Attack.
FUN!
But no pic.
SIAN
*YAWN*
Time to sleep.
Nothing more to post anyway.
Nights.
Dear,
Its just 10 more mins and your probation would end.
29 was your 18th birthday.
Tomorrow,
You will be free.
Iloveyou deardear.
Mwarks
Labels: 9 more mins
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Wednesday, July 29, 2009 7:25 PM ♥
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO: DEARDEAR.
Wo ai ni deardear. Happy 18th birthday Today is the day when me and you had been together for 247 days. Thank you for all the time when you are with me. I love you. Not to forget. I love CHUAXIAOZHU also. I love ZHUOXIAOZHU too. I love Waiyu ^^. Best of all... I love you, Deardear. Happy birthday
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Tuesday, July 28, 2009 11:40 PM ♥
Went to school as normal.
^^
Morning English.
I realised the bonding with the Form.
Had changed.
PE,
Playes soft ball like games.
Haha!
Not well.
So vomitted.
-.-
POA quizz was difficult.
AWWW..
After school,
Met deardear.
Dear,
I love you.
Sleeping time.
Goodnight.
Mwarks to all
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Monday, July 27, 2009 9:47 PM ♥
Today didn't go school.
Miss Ah Pei and JJ!
Made a blogskin wahah!
PROUD...!
Just now went to tuition and came across 1 story.
Its really meaningful...
LOVE or INFATUATION?
Infatuation is instant desire. It is one set of glands calling to another.
Love is friendship that has caught fire. It takes root and grows - one day at a time.
Infatuation is marked by a feeling of insecurity.
You are excited and eager but not genuinely happy.
There are nagging doubts, unanswered question, little bits and pieces about your beloved that you would just as soon not examine closely. It might spoil the dream.
Love is quiet understanding and the mature acceptance of imperfection. It is real. It gives you the strength and grows beyond you - to bolster your beloved. You are warmed by his presence, even when he is away. Miles do not seperate you. You want him nearer. But near or far, you know he is yours and you can wait.
Infatuation says, " We must get married right away. I can't risk losing him."
Love says, "Be patient. Don't panic. Plan your future with confidence."
Infatuation has an element of sexual excitement. If you are honest, you will admit that it is difficult to be in one another's company unless you are sure it will end in intimacy.
Love is the maturation of friendship. You must be friends before you can be lovers.
Infatuation lacks confidence. When he's away, you wonder if he's cheating. Sometimes you check.
Love means trust. You are calm, secure and unthreatened. He feels the trust, and it makes him even more trustworthy.
Infatuation might lead you to do things you'll regret later but love never will.
Love is upper. It makes you look up. It makes you think up. It makes you a better person than you were before.
This made me realise.
I never once love Samuel.
The guy that made me cried like mad.
The guy that made me feel pain.
I never once love him.
It was just a process.
A waste of time
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Sunday, July 26, 2009 1:58 PM ♥
Yesterday morning was DAMN fun. out with mummy in the morning. Wore purple smoked tube with white stripe cardi. Then had JollyBean for breakfast. Went ICA building to collect passport. Then head-ed home to change. Decided to change into Kimono ^^ Okay. The rest of the day ain't very happy. So shall not post. But i really miss deardear alot..  Gaint fly on mum's car :xalthough it looks small in the pic. but its really BIG
 Hate the facial expressionBut love the lighting effect
not even editted
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Friday, July 24, 2009 4:17 PM ♥
Today is 8 months anniversary.
Happy 8 months to you deardear.
Saw 2 pair of birds flying in the big blue sky.
They looked as if they were a pair.
Dancing around in the sky.
It was really beautiful.
Today is anniversary.
But i don't feel sweet.
I don't feel happy.
I don't know why.
Perhaps like what you asked,
Had my feeling faded...
My answer to you is...
No..
It still the same.
I am maube just tired of you just caring about your games.
Even when today is our anniversary.
I cooked fried rice while deardear cooked luncheon meat.
Nice lunch right?
Bever felt so depressed before.
Really...
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Wednesday, July 22, 2009 2:01 PM ♥
2 more days to 8month anniversary.
I still feel that you don't understand me.
Broke the promises made for how many times?
2 more days,
JUST 2 more days.
48 hours that would be.
2880 minutes to go.
172800 seconds to count.
Nearly 8 months,
I am getting tired of it.
Perhaps,
We weren't even meant for one another.
Perhaps,
We shouldn't be together.
Perhaps,
Xinyi was right.
I am nothing but a inmature brat.
Who thinks that she knows alot about love.
When now she realised,
She don't at all.
Love is about giving in.
I felt that i gave in.
I wanted to accompany him badly today.
I really missed him alot.
I really looked forward to seeing him straight after school.
I really wanted to hug him.
I felt so disappointed once more.
When i can't find him anywhere i looked.
At least when i called,
I thought i would be told that he had gone out.
But in the end,
He was still asleep.
I was perhaps too selfish.
If this goes on,
I reckon that this relationship will last on.
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Tuesday, July 21, 2009 11:03 PM ♥
Deardear just left not long ago.
WORRIED -1
Just manage to get 2 kittens out of the 7 floor
and release it to the ground floor.
Because...
There are many dogs here!
Who knows they might be attacked.
Now even worried...!
Scared that it might rain.
OH~~
I am going to pray hard that it wouldn't rain.
Those cute little kittens.
I wished i could keep them.
At least till morning.
Buying food tomorrow.
To see if the 2 kittens are still there.
WORRIED WORRIED -2
I wory so much for the kittens.
They are really gentle.
TRUST ME!
Gentlest animal..
Because my GUCCI is damn rough.
I miss the 2 kitties.
Hope they would be fine.
Shall upload pics of them tmr.
Scared of them being abused by those psychotic people.
Hope they will be able to survive.
Hope good people will take them in.
Hope they will grow up safely.
WORRIED,WORRIED,WORRIED -3
I WANT THE KITTENS TO BE FINE.
SORRY THAT I COULDN'T TAKE YOU IN.
AND LEAVING YOU ON THE 6TH AND 7TH FLOOR IS TOO DANGEROUS.
BECAUSE...
THERE ARE MANY DOGS.
KITTENS,
PLEASE BE SAFE AND SOUND
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4:47 PM ♥
FUCKING DAY!
FUCKING HOME!
Mum was sick so she was home.
Er jiu was also here.
Me and deardear headed home after lunch.
Deardear was tired.
I was just doing my homework.
I went over.
SHE accused me of lying down on my bed.
TOGETHER i suppose.
WHEN I DIDN'T!
Er jiu saw him on my bad.
I am sitting at the edge of my bed.
Whats wrong with it?
Throwing some fucking temper at me.
2 days.
You never once cared about me.
I am sick of it.
You are my mum.
You are more for your siblings comparing to us.
You cared more for yiyi,
You cared more for jeremy.
WHAT ABOUT ME?
Why treat me like a piece of SHIT?!
I am not.
I am too given birth by you.
I flow the same blood that you have.
If this is home,
I rather not stay.
FUCKED UP BY MUM!
Xinpei today throw the hard ball so hard.
It hit my hand.
PAIN~~!
Nevermind,
I hit her too i guess.
JIAJING&XINPEI is love
Xinpei these days like so emo.
Jiajing was opposite.
Damn high.
They are my LOVE.
Really...Labels: hate uue
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Monday, July 20, 2009 9:12 PM ♥
 Property of CHUA JINGXIAN   RETARTED!  I simply love the lighting in my room
 Born MMY   What i did to DD hands when he was sleeping
 Love him LOADS! These are the pictures taken from the past few days. The one with Dear is taken at Newton Circle. Eating with mummy ^^
The rest is obvious that i am playing with Dear hp. C: Its fun marh.
Then the hand. Because he is sleeping and i was doing homework, I decided to play a prank on him. I ain't bad OKAY? Labels: pictures
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5:42 PM ♥
JASMIN:
if uue never speak out what happen, no one willl ever know and there is no way to solve this porb. the end
JASMIN: suppose to be friends but ended up this way. uue are no longer the meiqi i knw. I am no longer the jasmin uue once knew. so i am out of here. anything, uue can just tag my blog. dn tag at meijin's and
JASMIN: i am out of both of your life. i dn knw wads with uue and meijin.
JASMIN: Okay?
JASMIN: you live your life, i life mine. you don't owe me, i dn owe uue
JASMIN: nevermind. i am out of here. i am not going to care anymore. and i shouldn't even care from the 1st place. isn't it?
JASMIN: I was like asking like a friend then in the end i was treated like ****. then what do you expect?
JASMIN: If you didn't give me that attitude then people won't think you pull me down. OKAY? i don't even want to be involve in this thing from the first place.
19 Jul 09, 10:09
meiqi- jasmin: dont make other ppls think i pulling u down kays
meiqi- jasmin: if u don't even know what happen just get away this problem dont in the end say what i pull u down to this prob lah
OKAY!
Now i shall post my thoughts.
This is my blog anyway.
So if YOU are unhappy.
Then your problem C:
Replied to MEIQI tags at meijin blog.
As you all can see on the top.
So this friendship is really gone.
I am letting go.
Not going back to how it is anymore.
How many friendships were kept?
How many were actually true?
Meiqi,
You changed.
I admit i changed also.
We are not as close as before.
You changed to someone i don't know anymore.
You have your own life.
I shall not prob so much into it.
I too hated to be "pulled down"
But i hate being attitude-ed at.
No one likes it.
I think neither do you like it.
So what if we used to be friends?
Is it still the same?
No right?
I thought every friendship would last forever.
In the end,
ALL of you woke me up.
Thank you for doing that.
Thank you for allowing me to see this ugly world.
I once dreamt of me and XINYI going back to the past.
Just like how we used to be.
but when i woke up,
I realised its a dream.
I realised there is 1 day,
I was actually waiting for MEIQI message.
Hoping that she is the one sending me those friendship message.
Hoping she is the one sending me a message telling me her troubles.
I realised there is 1 day,
I find myself thinking of what to give you as a present.
On 14 August,
Its TINGJUN birthday.
I was thinking of what to give you?
I realised 1 day,
I suddenly wanted to gift XINYI a beautiful necklace.
Just like the one she gave me on my 14th birthday.
Time really flies.
I am already 15.
So many things had happened.
And i lost all of you.
but i could only accept my fate.
Now...
I am out of all of your life.
GOODBYE
Tag replies:
MEIJIN-
I will tell you but i can never change your life for you.
You chose to live in misery.
I can't help you anymore.
I can be there,
But not like the past anymore.
Labels: SISTERs ain't for life
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Friday, July 17, 2009 8:28 AM ♥
In computer lab now.
Doing research on Sri lankan Conflict and the Northern Ireland conflict -.-
Morning woke up,
Talked to deardear on MSN.
Haha!
Then went to school.
Requested to skip school today.
Because i was so DAMN tired.
1st lesson is NOW!
Social Studies aka Super Sian.
Doing research on Sri lankan Conflict.
Invloves the Sri Lankan Government and the Liberation of Tigers of Tamil Eelam.
Ok.
Shall not post about the research.
Will go crazy by typing out all those researches.
LOL!
Deardear,
although we always quarrel.
But my love for you had never once changed.
Thank you for tolerating for unreasonable-ness.
My childish-ness.
I failed my part as a good stead.
but you had done your part well.
You treat me like a treasure.
You assure me happiness.
I love you deardear.
I never regret starting this relationship.
At least you kept the promise of studying.
You even did well.
I am really very proud of you.
You are the one i really wished for.
I love you dear
Labels: ILOVEYOU
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Tuesday, July 14, 2009 4:57 PM ♥
12july2009
I freaking hate last minute arrangements.
So what if you are older.
So what if you said it early in the morning.
Don't i have the rights to choose if i want to go?
I want to stay home.
Thats all.
I am freakingly tired.
You always said that I must show improvement in my studies then i am allowed to do what i want.
I listen to you.
I did what you want me to.
I went to that stupid tuition 3 days in a row.
I didn't complain.
So what if I have O's next year?
If i can choose,I rather be like Xuening who don't even have to face this stress.
She can slack all day at home.
What about me?
Do you even know what i am going through?
Do you know how unhappy I am.
Why can't i do what i want.
Why can i have a right or a say in my life.
This is my life isn't it.
You want it perfect for me.
But you never knew how unhappy i am.
You said you want the best for me.
You said whatever i want,You would try to accomadate and give it to me.
Do you even know how unhappy I was.
I was very unhappy.
I can't have the right to choose if i wanted to go out.
is my life.But i never once had my own say.
So what if there is O's?I give no FUCKING damn care.
I don't want a perfect life.I just want a happy one.
You failed to give me a happy childhood.
You failed to be by my side when i was young.
I am just me myself.
I want no one.
No one...!
To control my life
14july2009.
Went to school as usual.
But today late because ate breakfast with mummy and yiyi.
Head-ed to school.
Took temperture and it stated 37.1 -.-
Went to class and saw _____ face.
EWWW.
Gross teacher.
Nevermind.
Recess,Talked to aaron about some things.
Am i naive?
I don't know.
After school,
Ate lunch with aaron.
Talked about the same again -.-
Outside school,
Deardear called.
Was damn surprised la.
Thought he ended at 3.30
But ended at 2.30 instead.
I know i was wrong.
I know its not right to eat lunch with other guys.
But i really didn't know where were you.
You didn't have a handphone with you.
How am i supposed to find you?
I tried to cheer you up.
Tried to make this flame of yours smaller.
In the end?
Now,you fell alseep.
Leaving me alone.
I know i am at fault.
I shouldn't had lunch with him.
You weren't the one with me when i cried today.
You weren't the one who cared for me when i cried today.
But it was you who i thought of first when i cried today.
Whenever i need you,
Where are you?
Whenever i want to find you,
Where are you?
You said you didn't want an handphone because you didn't want to be found so easily.
But have you ever thought of me wanting to find you?
When i cry,
When i am unhappy.
I need you the most.
But you weren't there.
Now,
I need you to be at least not so angry,
I need you to hug me,
I need you to be with me.
I need your shoulders.
I can't hold on anymore.
Sleepless nights.
I am getting sick.
You said you would be there.
But you were never there. Labels: heartbroken
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Sunday, July 12, 2009 3:08 AM ♥
Just came home from movie and supper.
Movie: Ice Age 3
Was damn freakin nice.
So rmantic and sweet larh.
Very hilarious also.
Shall bring deardear to watch C:
Supper: Swensens
If i didn't spell wrong :X
Ate damn alot.
So damn full now.
I don't want post liao!
Tired.
Want to talk to DEARDEAR.
So i took this pic. Deardear IMY badly Labels: muacks
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Friday, July 10, 2009 6:40 PM ♥
Today was damn FUCKED UP.
Morning, Went to school almost late.
Mdm Rani took the class because Mr Shake saw that there was no teacher.
Of course la!
Both Form and Co-Form still on MC.
SS Lesson.
The lesson was so damn boring that i nearly slept.
Or i can say i slept.
Then suddenly, I felt fingers on my neck -.-
Its Miss Tan/Ah Pei.
I not very sure.
Then was POA.
The not very fun subject.
I scored 8/10 for quizz XD
Then english.
The ____ teacher.
Ms Jaya.
SHe was damn ___ la
I was doing my stuffs.
Then instead of telling me to put it away,
Guess what she said?
She said : Do you want me to prick you with the needle?"
I was damn fucked up la.
Recess.
Saw MQ and MJ.
THey fought i guess?
And for no reason just because i asked a question,
I was being attitude.
WTF law is this?
I had enough.
Tired of trying to go back to the past.
Its impossible.
These 2 years,
It had been proven.
Friends/sisters/promises.
They are just words to make you believe.
At the end of everything,
they will all be gone.
I changed.
They changed.
No longer together.
No longer hanging out the canal.
I drop smoking.
Because it reminds me of ______.
Now, I just want to stay out of their affairs,
Their problems are no longer mine.
If really trying to go back to how we were like was so difficult,
If i had knew,
I would perhaps never wanted to go back.
So what if the memories were beautiful?
They ain't forever.
We promised to be there for one another when we were down/in trouble.
But neither of us really did it.
When they are in trouble,
They no longer tell me a thing,
I no longer knew how the help them.
When i am in trouble,
They won't even care/know.
Because we now belongs to different world.
They have their lives,
So do i.
I have JIAJING,XINPEI,SHIHUI,NIKKI & XINYI.
I am alright alreay.
They will never leave me when i need them.
For the past 7 months,
They are the ones,
I can share trouble with in school,
When i find myself crying hard,
They never fails to cheer me up.
How many of my past sisters does it?
Promised not to be forgotten.
Promised not to be left alone.
Promised never to leave one another.
Promised never to nreak this friendship.
How many were kept?
NONE!
Who left me when i was down?
Who said that she would be there forever?
Who said no matter what happens, I still have her?
Who said that although we are drifted, we are still friends?
WHO SAID WE ARE SISTERS FOREVER?
Who said they would be with me?
Now who were the ones left?
If this is really what i get back,
i rather had the memories.
Just the memories.
The rest..
Are all meaningless.
Your birthday is coming.
I wonder what to give you as a present.
I never once forgot all your birthday.
I really hope to celebrae it once again with you.
But i know its no longer possible.
I hate to admit it.
But in fact,
I really miss all of you.
The past we had.
I wanted to go back to the past.
But now,
I had given up this hope.
Perhaps.
We were not meant to be together forever.
All of you came and left.
This is a lesson to me.
NEOPRINTS from the past
Labels: i really miss uue all, in fact
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